at the end of the day..

Today is almost over and I accomplished next to nothing that I was supposed to but in the same sence, I did manage to get this set up and start talking to some people from LA which I hope to do more of because being all alone out there won't be any fun. 

Tomorrow is back to work and hopefully finish somethings that I should of gotten done today. 

Well I can at least continue packing.

A small portion of my carry on.

My makeup.

Trying to figure out How to navigate on here isn't the easiest so now to see if I can post pictures.

If this wotks these are select pictures of my makeup over the past several years.

I'm still only human..

After so long of the same thing day after day, even if your good at it, eventually you have to throw in the towel if your hearts not in it.

I live an ordinary life in the middle of a small city competeing with Philadelphia and New York, but without the fun of city life. Need a bar or church though and your in luck we have plenty but that's about it. I work an everyday job managing a resturant. Not what I had in mind with a brain to be a doctor. I have my own apartment, a nice one, and if something is done its because of me, not someone else. I've worked hard to get where I am....but that's the problem I'm having...I haven't gotten anywhere.

So this will be me..who I am..who I was...who I'll become..

So a good start would be catching up..

I'm 22 years old..Lived in most of the same area my whole life, not so much a good thing.  If there hasn't been some kind of stabbing or shooting in the news lately its an odd week and can expect something big coming up. The police found someone once by following a blood trail to a house on my street..not to mention the repeated tines of trying to go outside and having cops screaming go back inside. Like I said not the best place to be.

Highschool graduate..a lot of people here just drop out. Hated highschool..mostly the students though my teachers were pretty awesome. I was on stage crew..took all advanced classes..took almost every science class that was offered I was able to do advanced math in 7th grade.. and I'm talking trigonometry and calculus. Didn't continue to college.. I wanted to be a plastic surgeon. I'm far from that now.. 

No boyfriend..No husband..No kids just me myself and I. I actually don't like kids don't want any ever either they freak me out. My best friend has two that's enough for me. This is another thing I'm trying to figure out..Why I'm never the one someone wants. I'm always the one who gets broken up with so they can be with someone else. Never good enough I suppose is the best way to put it. I'm the one who fell for their best friend and finally after getting together and everything seemed perfect he left me too. Now I don't even think I can call him a friend at all. 

All of those things are reasons that finally forced my final decision to get out start over finally find something for myself rather then being upset over what I can't have. 

So its finally been decided May of 2013 I'm packing as much as I can uprooting my life and moving to Los Angeles California.  Where I can start a new life hopefully a better one and start on a career with makeup.