still dreaming

Well its april now...half way threw...still have to start moving out of my house..save more money and really take a look at what I'm doing. Ill make this clear..I'm going its just a matter of how..
I've been doing as much as I can..of everything just bevause I don't really know what's going to happen...not even an idea..talking to my friend at the store today has me thinking of looking into the sandiego instead of La...I only know her from the bus and a local store but I think what she's saying is worth looking into.
I've been shopping..not much..but enough to keep myself happy.
At my job longer now...figured I could use a few more paychecks before I leave..
I think I have a tooth growing in..its killing me. But that's really all the New..
After the work meeting I went to tacobell asked for extra sauce and this is what I got..

185+ sauces..I had already given a friend two handfuls.

Wore maleup the other day..getting back into the swing of things

Then i bought some snacks ^_^

But thats really life at the moment

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My dreams have been a lot more vivid.

I see you a lot...

I know its just a dream though...

Little by little I'm starting to realize how few people or anything I have or had here. One thing I don't enjoy is feeling forgotten..but this time its not even that...this time I just never was anything...that's what bothers me.

Going on..

So I've finally learned to stop trying to use certain programs on my keyboard to type anything on here usually ends in horrible freezing and losing the post.
So I have almost one month until I move out to LA..I'm so excited and nervous at the same time. Still have so much to finish out here.
I think the worsr part is I'm currently super lonely which isn't helping my thought process of moving to somewhere that I know not a soul. This is the longest I've been single in my life. Not to sound horribly egotistical but I'm use to having at least one person want me..never no one. I still find myself just sitting here wondering what's wrong with me all of a sudden..
I'm not supposed to buy anything even plan on quitting smoking to save up..I have no idea how long it takes to get a job out there, here in PA its next to impossible.
Still have to finish applicatoons for special effects schools (makeup), with any luck I can get in and start a career that's enjoyable.I may have learned a lot where I am but its a not omg amazing and that's all I want.